Hello, beautiful people! I hope you’re all doing incredibly well! I’m currently sat at home with a cold/ flu/ type bug feeling rather sorry for myself. So, I thought I’d just give you a general update on what’s been going on in The Life of Lil this week.
I went back to university to start my second year on Monday. I can assure you that I was absolutely dreading going back. It’s not that I don’t like uni, I just don’t know what I want to do anymore. And everyone seems to be having an amazing time, making life long friends… and then there’s me. Sat in the corner trying really hard to succeed and make friends, but it’s just not happening. Last year I found the work unchallenging. The only modules I found hard were the ones I didn’t have the support I desperately needed in order to complete them. I don’t expect this year to be any different. We’ve already been told that one of our lecturers is refusing to teach us because there’s ‘too many people’ on our course. Mate, what are you talking about!? On my course, including myself, there are six people! So who knows if this year I’ll even be having lectures or learning anything remotely new. Plus the people studying at my university can be quite difficult to talk to. Which is a shame because they’re all lovely people. I just get the vibe that they don’t want to talk to me/ they’re just happy with their own groups and don’t need anyone else getting involved. So, I’m really not hopeful about this year. The new first years in our course seem quite but nice. So Maybe I’m just being a bit too cynical about university. We’ll just have to wait and see.
My mental health has been getting better this week, it’s just a shame my physical health has gone down hill. I recently had a really bad depressive episode and didn’t leave the house for about a week or so. I only left the house so I could go to work and to get a PSL with two friends. It was a bad time. I felt so heavy and alone. Even if I had a thousand friends around me, I’d have still felt alone. It just wasn’t a great time for me. But down times do come, and eventually the do go. Just being stuck in that mental sludge kills me. It’s so crippling to see friends out there, enjoying life, and you can’t even open the door to the post man because you’re physically unable to get out of bed because of how awful you feel. I’m just thankful I’m getting back to my ‘normal’ self. Well, as normal as I’ll ever be. I’ve been unable to film any videos for YouTube recently, which sucks, but again, hopefully after this weekend I will be back online with some spooky videos to celebrate this month of Halloween!
I worked over the Lush Christmas Launch weekend (this weekend 1/10/16-2/10/16) and honestly…. it was crazy! If you’ve ever been to my tiny store, you’d see how crazy it is on a normal weekend. But if you combine Halloween products, and highly anticipated Christmas products, then you’ll get a passive aggressive mosh pit with added environmentally friendly glitter. I believe we ran out of certain products on just the Saturday afternoon/Sunday morning. I just couldn’t believe how crazy people become over grabbing seasonal products before their friends/family etc. It was like watching a very sparkly olympic event, but with more elbows and shopping bags.
I’m getting excited for Halloween even though I know I probably won’t end up doing anything for it. I’ve got a mask… I still don’t even know what my costume will be, but I have a very rad red mask with a kind of ‘Day of The Dead’ theme to it. So maybe I’ll go as something along those lines. I think I’m also getting excited for Halloween as it marks my first year anniversary at Lush! So if Halloween wasn’t cool enough with all the ghost stories, and paranormal stories everyone hits me with, it’s also a very important date in my eyes. Anyways, going back to Halloween being spooky… Do you guys have any spooky stories? If so, let me know in the comments below or tweet me/email me them! My info will forever be at the bottom of the page! Also if you’ve got any suggestions for spooky videos I should make, again leave them down below or send them to me via Twitter or email! I have quite a few spooky stories, so I’ll get to writing them and making a few videos about them soon! Some of my friends think a few of my paranormal stories are creepy, others aren’t sure what to believe. All I can say is… I hope you’re not afraid of no ghosts!
I wish I had something more interesting to write to you guys about, but for the time being, life is pretty boring and I’m currently doing nothing while I’m ill. Hopefully by the time my days off next week come around I’ll be well enough to start filming again, so I’ll have something to do for a few days then! I’ll also be making a Facebook page for this blog and my YouTube channel very soon, so I’ll definitely be sure to leave a link when it’s ready in a post so you guys can keep up to date with what I’m doing and access me a lot easier/ quicker!
So, until next time guys, have an awfully big adventure!