After radio silence for a good few weeks, maybe even months… I’m back! I’ve been so busy recently that I’ve hardly had time to sleep, let alone sit down and actually write something here. So I guess a Life of Lil update is well overdue. and you guys deserve an explanation as to what’s been happening.
One of the main reasons for me not being able to write as much as I’d have hoped is, I recently became a Spa Receptionist at work. This means working 5 full days a week being in full-on Lush Mode 24/7. On my days off I just about manage to sleep, eat and speak to my family before it all starts up again the next day. Don’t get me wrong, it’s honestly fantastic work! I thoroughly enjoy the work I do, especially now seeing as I have more responsibility on my shoulders. Makes me feel a bit more validated as a human being. And week ago I actually met some of the founders of Lush! I got to escort them around the new store/ spa and make sure they had a rather pleasant time with us. I have to say, it was mildly terrifying to meet the people who created a company you’ve loved for years. It’s also mildly terrifying when they turn out to be super lovely and exactly like you. I guess that’s life though, full of lovely little surprises.
Speaking of Lush, on a much sadder note, I handed in my notice last Saturday. After nearly 2 years with my second family, my time there has come to a bittersweet end. I feel awful about leaving, especially after being promoted so recently. But I have an incredible opportunity lined up in front of me, I’d be a fool not to grab it and run. Lush has been a huge support network to me. Lush Spa Cardiff have given me happiness, confidence and friendships that I’ll forever cherish. They say that you meet your best friends for life at university, well, I met mine at Lush. Even with ups and downs, just as every friendship has, I’ve cherished each and every moment with my team. It’s very sad leaving considering they’ve shown me nothing but love over the past 2 years. But, a lot of people have noticed how unhappy I’ve been recently, so maybe what I’ve got lined up for my future will make me feel a bit better. Perhaps this will give you a tiny clue as to what I’m on about when I mention ‘big opportunity’… On Friday, I actually went to Birmingham to the BBC Assessment centre. I went in feeling nervous, frightened and unsure, and left feeling like a weight had been lifted off of me. But that’s all you’re getting for now. Sorry!
I may have to go to Birmingham again at the end of the month, but who knows. If I do need to go back, I’ll need to find someone trust worthy to look after my pet hamsters, Sam and Dean, and my brand new baby, Crowley the Cockapoo puppy! I’m visiting Crowley soon and hopefully he can come live with us in the next few weeks. I’m so excited! I’ve wanted a dog for so many years, and after begging, crying and pleading, I finally broke my mum and step dad. We’re getting a dog! And by ‘we’ I mean me. I’ve saved up for him, I’ve got everything in place for him to be coming home soon, and if Mark (the step dad) wants to play with Crowls, he’ll have to accept that we as a family have a dog. My mum is beyond excited to meet Crowley! He’s like a little ball of fluffy sunshine to us recently! I’m sure he’ll fit right in with us.
I’m hoping that after Crowley comes home, my mental health will get better. Since getting Sam and Dean it’s improved considerably, but Crowley could help me get out of the house when I don’t even want to get out of bed. I’ve been having a lot of those days lately. I just don’t feel worth my friends time, or no matter what I’ll always lose friends because of the way I am. I don’t know, it’s just been one of those times I guess. It can only get better though, right? I’ll probably feel differently tomorrow or even in an hours time, but that’s pretty much how I’ve been feeling for the past few weeks. If I’m not worth my friends time, then how can I be worth yours?
Anyway, I hope that explains why I’ve not been around as much these days. I’ll be working on setting up my own not-for-profit organisation called The Purple Project soon with a good friend, Frank. We’re hoping to raise awareness of mental health and bring hope and coping methods to those suffering through creative and productive means. Although we’ll be helping other charities and not-for-profits to begin with to see what we can do/ what to expect as an organisation. But I’ll be sure to keep you updated on everything that happens! I hope you guys will stick with me for the next awfully big adventure in my life.